I saw Jake staring at me.
He coldly said, “If that is the case, you should
leave and don’t bother other people. It would
be better if you didn’t exist in his life. Self-
ds were so bad.
Self–gratification? I have been doing it for so
long.
My eyes became red and my voice shook, “You know him so well, are you guys the same? You like to disappear and make people wait and wear them out and don’t say sorry. You say it is self–gratification. I just want a word of closure, is my 5 years so easily said?”
Jake wrinkled his brows and got mad.
“No one is making you wait. Love and hate
are voluntary. Since you decided to wait,
should you take the consequences.”
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“You waited for 5 years, he should be grateful
He was so cold.
I stood there and every expectation I had was shattered.
I started crying. Jake’s words were like knives.
What he said was true. It was all voluntary.
No one made me wait. And what I did today was because of me.
What we had was now so weak.
Ashley saw the situation and said, “You are
looking for a fight. Don’t say anything mean
to her. Don’t bother her.”
Jake sneered. “She is just faking.”
I was blank and didn’t say anything and stood there.
The scar on my head was still hurting like it was laughing at me.
After the argument, I didn’t see Jake. Maybe he didn’t want to see me.
I stayed in the same house for half a month
and I didn’t see him.
I became more quiet and stayed in my room.
Ashley took care of me, and cooked for me.
I wished she wasn’t so nice to me. If she was,
I wouldn’t have any ideas. I would think I was
But how could I agree!
I was jealous that Jake laughed at her and was nice to her, and I wanted to blind myself.
I had thoughts of Jake dying, so I could lie to myself.
I started staying in the living room so I could see Jake.
But he didn’t come home.
I asked Ashley, “Where is he.”
She was replying to a message and smiling. “He hasn’t been back in 3 years. The
