Chapter 5
Before, I would have confronted John.
I clung to the memory of his words on my
birthday.
I believed he loved me.
Every time I made a scene, he’d distance
himself from other women.
But this time, I was too tired.
I turned off my phone, checked into a hotel.
Then I contacted a talent scout who’d
approached me.
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I told him I was ready to be a singer.
He’d seen my potential abroad, persistently inviting me to his agency.
He said I had a gift, that I could be a star.
But I’d been fixated on John, so I’d refused.
He replied quickly: “You finally came around!
When can you come in?”
I thought, this trip had been so impulsive.
I’d wanted to surprise John, but he’d
surprised me instead.
I’d lost my enthusiasm for everything. But
then I thought of Mr. Johnson.
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He’d raised me for years. I decided to visit
him.
So I told the scout I’d be back in three days.
The next day, John contacted me first.
He said he was throwing me a welcome party
at a club, would pick me up soon.
I wanted to refuse, to confront him.
But I didn’t want Mr. Johnson to find out.
I decided to keep the peace until I left.
gave him the address.
He picked me up, but didn’t go in with me.
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He said, “Go ahead inside. I need to pick
someone else up.”
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