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I was eating my cake, and Lisa came over,
stroking my arm with a concerned look on her
face.
She looked like she was about to cry.
“Sis, did it hurt? You must have suffered a
lot. I’ve heard that if a woman ends up in
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Myanmar, there is only one way to survive,
you have to become a…
She stopped. “Sis, you were able to survive,
but they must have forced you to do that,
right?”
Her concern was like torture to me.
My heart was cold and shaking. “Lisa, it’s
worse than the rumors. If you become a
prostitute, you are considered one of the lucky ones. But I was lucky. I survived by
being Yu Jie’s cook.”
Ji Fan thought of me as his sister back then.
But you can’t just sit around in Myanmar. Yu
Jie asked me what I was good at and I said I
could cook.
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I tried a few dishes and Yu Jie was happy, so
she let me stay.
I learned all of my cooking skills because I
was trying to get Chad’s attention back in the
day.
Lisa burst into tears, running into Chad’s
arms.
“Chad, this is so scary. If we have a daughter,
we have to protect her…”
Chad held her, patting her back. I couldn’t
stand it anymore, so I went to the bathroom
for some air.
I splashed some water on my face. When I
looked up, someone brushed past me.
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My heart skipped a beat.
Ji Fan. I could have sworn it was Ji Fan!
Not long after he broke my arm, he said he
was going away on a mission.
It was supposed to be really dangerous, and
he said if he didn’t come back, I should forget
him.
I had been rescued from Myanmar and I had
not seen him again.
I called out his name and was about to go
after him when Chad blocked my path.
I pushed him with my hand. “Get out of the
way. I think I saw someone I knew.”
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“Someone you knew?” Chad glanced outside.
“Sarah, the people you know best are all at
the table.”
I frowned.
Who were those people?
They were just people who made fun of me.
Maybe I looked pale. Chad sighed.
“Sarah, you’re not still angry because I forgot
to order your matcha cake, are you?”
I just stared at him. “Chad, I’m going to make
it perfectly clear. I’m not in love with your
anymore. I have someone else, please don’t
bother me anymore, okay?”
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Chad’s face was full of disbelief.
“Sarah! You said you’d love me forever! Now
you have someone else? Did you find him in
Myanmar? You’re just so desperate!”
I finally snapped.
“Chad, I said I’d love you forever, but you told
me after Bethany died that you only loved her,
that you’d never marry another woman, that
you hated my face, and that you felt
disgusted by looking at it!
“But you not only got another woman
pregnant, but that woman is also my sister!
Everyone says that Lisa and I look a lot alike,
so are you disgusted by looking at her face?”
Suddenly a voice spoke from behind Chad.
“Sis, how could you say that? I’m your sister, why would you want him to be disgusted by
me?”
Lisa, I don’t know how, showed up. Jenny was supporting her. Lisa was looking like she was about to faint from pain.
Jenny also told me, “Sarah, everyone here is happy for them. Nobody knew you were still alive. You shouldn’t be mad at them…”
I was so confused, and the pain was in my heart, I didn’t know how to explain myself.
It felt like everyone was right.
And I was the only one who was wrong.
Then a man walked over from the side, calling
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I glanced at him, and then I froze.
Ji Fan!
It was Ji Fan!
I forgot everything else and ran up to him. “Ji
Fan, is it really you?”
The man looked at me calmly. “Miss, you
must have the wrong person.”
Jenny looked confused. “Sarah, this is my
new sales manager, his name is Chen Mo, not
some Ji Fan.”
Lisa whispered, “Sis, can you stop?”
Even Chad said, “Sarah, is this another move
you learned from back in the day when you
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flirted with me? Do you think you can do it
every time?”
I wasn’t listening to any of this.
My eyes were locked on the man who looked
exactly like Ji Fan.
He had this kind of cool, lazy look on his face.
He spoke very slowly.
“Are you Miss Sarah? I heard about you from Ms. Jiang. Miss Sarah, you’re very beautiful,
it’s too bad there’s something wrong with
your eyes. How did you ever fall for Mr. Chad,
the kind of man who’d embarrass his ex-
girlfriend in public?”
I smiled. “I was young and naive.”
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The man just nodded, said goodbye, and was
about to leave with Jenny.
But he was wearing a custom suit, so I
couldn’t see if he had any scars.
I wasn’t sure if it was Ji Fan.
I counted all of Ji Fan’s scars.
Three gunshot wounds.
Eighteen stitches.
And others that I couldn’t count.
That’s when I lay with him, counting each
scar and whimpering.
Eight months ago, Yu Jie went to Laos, but
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That night I made him boneless chicken feet
and clam stuffed meat.
We drank alcohol, but we didn’t get drunk.
The vibe was perfect, and he kissed me.
I kissed him back.
That was my most unforgettable night in
Myanmar.
I wanted to live in the moment.
I didn’t know if I’d be alive tomorrow.
That night, I stroked Ji Fan’s face and told
him that I wouldn’t regret it if I could sleep
with Yu Jie’s man before I died.
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He grabbed me hard by the waist.
“I’m not Yu Jie’s man!”
I giggled and hugged his waist. “I’m sorry,
you’re not her man, you’re my man.
His face finally softened a little, and his hand
stopped at my chest.
“Is it okay?” His voice was low, breathless.
I untied my bra strap. “I’ve been waiting
forever.”
