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- Do you accept?
Liam
The daylight bothers my face. I try to open my eyes, but I can’t. I turn to my right side to get used to the light. I feel my head pounding from the hangover. My mouth is so dry that I can barely swallow. I just want to get up and get some water. I try to straighten up, but dizziness stops me. I must not drink like this again.
When I’m finally sitting up, I realize that I’m totally naked. I don’t know at what point in the night I took off all my clothes and got into bed. It’s been one of those days when I drink more than my body can handle. I finally yet to my feet, but when I turn around, I jump in fright. There’s a woman lying on the other side. I walk around to see her face and realize it’s Maria. What time did she get here if I fell asleep so late? I put on my pajama
pants and go over to wake her up.
“Maria… Maria” She only answers me with an annoyed groan.
“Mmm.” I realize that she’s also naked. The strange thing is that we haven’t slept together in days. What is
she doing in my bed?
“Maria. When did you get back?” She begins to wake up completely and little by little sits up in bed.
“I arrived at dawn. You were asleep, but as soon as I got close to you, you started kissing me and telling me how much you missed me. And look, we ended up making love like before.” She smiles at me, but what she’s saying doesn’t make sense to me.
“Are you saying we had s*x? Are you sure?” I see her smile fade. It’s one of her gestures when she’s not telling the truth. I’ve known her since she was a girl and she used to do that when she wanted to play a joke on me.
“Are you doubting me?” I look at her without answering. She gets upset and tries to get up. “I see. Now you don’t believe me. Well, think what you want.” She gets up and gets tangled in the sheet to get out of the room. Before she can leave completely, I stop her.
“Did we use protection?” She stands still without turning around. She takes a while to answer, so I don’t know
if she’s looking for an excuse.
“No, we didn’t,” she says without looking at me. “Is there a problem? You’re my husband.” She turns to look at
- me.
“Yes, I know we’re husband and wife, but we’re not in a good place. We can’t be irresponsible and bring a child
into the world who will only suffer.”
“Hahahaha.” She lets out a laugh but I stay serious. “Are you listening to yourself?” She comes closer to me
and points her finger at me. “You’re talking nonsense. Did your bastard son come from a lettuce?”
Her words fill me with fury. I take the hand she’s pointing at me with and squeeze it hard. I see her wince in
pain, but she doesn’t lower her face.
“I told you not to refer to my son in a derogatory way. He’s not a bastard.“– the fury grows inside me. I may be a son of a b***h to all the women I’ve been involved with, but she’s going to respect my son.
“Oh no? As far as I know, those born out of wedlock are considered that way.” – she frees herself from my grip and rubs where I had her pinned.
“He was fathered with the woman who was my fiancée. The fact that the wedding didn’t take place is not his
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fault. Or tell me…. did you like being called an orphan or a homeless girl? Her face darkens. I know it’s a low blow, but somehow she has to understand.
“Well, well, so that’s how it’s going to be.” I know what I said hurts her, because when she was little that was something that bothered her. “So, I should understand that that child will be more important to you than I am, your wife, right?”
I don’t answer her and she just grimaces before leaving the
ink that maybe, when she walked away
I run my hand through my hair. Living like this is stressful. Now from me, it was life showing me that we weren’t meant to be. I guess I was wrong to force something that was doomed to fail.
I sigh heavily as I grab my head. The pain continues to pound. I go to the bathroom to look for a painkiller in the medicine cabinet, but I can’t find anything. I pick up my phone to call the pharmacy down the street.
“Good morning. This is Dr. Donovan from Building B. Can you send a couple of painkillers to apartment 512? Charge it to my card on file. I haven’t used their services much, but I have requested medication before. “Yes, everything is fine. Excuse me, please add a morning–after pill. Thank you. Yes, as soon as possible.”
I don’t know how sincere Maria was, but I’m not taking any chances. I don’t feel any different, so I doubt what
she told me.
I lie down for a while longer waiting for my order, and take the opportunity to close my eyes. My baby’s face appears in my thoughts.
The love I feel for that little being is like nothing I’ve ever felt before. I begin to doze off again when I hear the
sound of the door.
I get up to open it. I look around the living room and there’s no sign of my wife.
“Good morning, here’s your order.” I receive the bag the delivery man hands me and close it. First I go to the kitchen to take my pills, and when I finish, I refill the glass.
I knock on the guest room door, but no one answers, so I go in. I don’t see my wife in bed, so I look for her in
for her. This situation
the bathroom. The sound of the shower tells me she’s there. I sit down to wall
depresses me. We can’t go on like this. Her living her life and me living mine, both separately.
I laugh at myself, thinking about everything I did to get us together and in the end it didn’t turn out the way!
thought it would. I’m aware that I didn’t give this relationship a chance, but my heart soon realized that I had
made the wrong choice.
I don’t realize when Maria comes out of the bathroom, with a towel covering her body and another one wrapped around her head like a turban.
She gives me a dirty look. I just watch the woman I thought I loved, with infinite sadness. She was my
childhood sweetheart, while she was a teenager. I was wrong. I know that.
“What are you doing here?” she asks me with fierceness in her voice. She’s angry, I know this is going to get
worse soon
“Here” I hand her the pill and the glass of water. She looks at them and then at me. “Take it. I don’t want there to be any consequences from what you say happened.”
As I imagined, she looks at me with hatred. She snatches them from me and puts the medicine in her mouth
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and swallows it.
“Satisfied?” she says and I nod. I walk slowly towards her and take her in my arms. I stay like this for a few
minutes, just holding her.
“Let’s separate.” I let go of her and notice how she tenses in my let her. “Let’s separate now while we still don’t hate each othe
end up doing.”
She tries to raise her eyes, but I don’t – if we stay together, that’s what we’ll
Maria stands stiff, not moving. I feel my chest begin to moisten. I slowly pull her away from me and look at
her.
You haven’t even given this marriage a chance. What was your insistence on being together? In the end I’m left alone and rejected by everyone who accepted me into your family. While you, you’ll soon be back with your parents, and besides, now you have a son. You’re a damn miserable man. Okay, let’s get a divorce. But if you think that because of this, Annie is going to come back to you and accept you as if nothing happened, forget it. She’s never going to forgive you.”
Maria
As I say these words, I see Liam turn pale. How easy it is for him to get rid of the problems he himself helped
to create!
He takes a while to answer me, because he knows I’m right. Now the woman he’s interested in is back and they have a child together. And he wants that combo.
“I’m not doing it for Annie. It’s just that you know this didn’t work out. It’s better if we go our separate ways. Now you have a good job, and of course I will continue to support you, it’s the least I can do for you.”
I walk to the closet to look for some clothes. Right now I feel like all my hatred is directed at him, but especially at Annie. I know she’ll feel like she finally won against me when she finds out about this.
“Okay, I’ll give you a divorce on one condition.” Liam watches me waiting for me to continue, but with a glimmer of hope in his eyes.
“Let’s make it to our one year anniversary. After that time, I’ll sign without a fuss. Do you accept?”
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